Is the propriety of your last rites really that important?

Life should be lived this way that if you have to die any day, there is a minimum backlog. Backlog is defined as the work left on the planet that had awaited solely you. So, this work is of a rather precarious nature that only you could have done it, no one else. So if you failed to love your siblings, you have a backlog since no love in the world could replace yours. Each person has something to contribute to the world. It's due to this contribution, he is remembered. Notoriety generates a huge debt on your account and you are remembered only with a wish to be forgotten soon. Even if you contributed generously in however occluded and subaltern position, you would be remembered as a yearning to find your duplicate and as an example set to your replacement. But if you only live your life for your benefit, then everything you did was a waste and there is an infinite backlog each day you live. So, you are a liability on the earth with your maximum intake and minimum contribution. In this case, you could die any day, since nothing will make any difference. So, while it's important in life to chase your dreams, it's equally important to realize where your contribution is irreplaceable. What a father expects of you is unique. Nobody can expect that from you. If you give generous efforts to accomplish that, the mere path of dedication and austerity will do your work even if you fall short of your expectations in the end. Your father would know, with every milestone that you achieved, that you were living his dreams generously and doing the unique job of a son. It doesn't mean you would be a bad son if you decided another path for yourself. Again the path will be important in terms of your diligence but here your task becomes a little tougher, here either your work will speak for itself and/or while still on your path your adherence to composure and reverence for your parents despite their persistent criticism will contribute to your generosity. So, in all the cases generosity and dedication will come into play. Generosity cannot be measured, it's only perceived through one's dedication. While it's important to rein your effusive tendencies and your predilection for indulgence in deadly sins, it's important to be generous to the outer world at some point of time. Nobody in this world is perfect, they are bound to take detours and make mistakes. So, sometimes it feels as if your generosity were a sin and a weakening agent. But when you retrospect you realize that being perfect was never that important an aim, however, dedication was. If you fail to meet those unique expectations, your family will still be your family, and they would not fail to acknowledge that fact that you tried your best. Ignominy of failure is disturbing and embarrassing but it's just an aspect, one should never deter from being pliable enough to channelize one's gift of dedication to another apropos pursuit.