DOES SLOW N STEADY ALWAYS WIN THE RACE? NO,IF HE IS A ''BORN LOSER''

I woke up & saw the mirror

tried to preen the reflection in stupor

but the plaintive poignant piercing gaze

cracked the valour.

Just a night afore

I had a plain face-core

now,suddenly I got wrinkles neve' seen before...

My eyes bewildered.

My torso quivered.

Was it a farce

to lump my face with scars?

Or was it a planned fiasco

forbidding me to meet my hero?

GOD said,"Thou shall experience my wrath

thou art' not a prodigy in wrap

felicity shall neve' knock thy door

fortune'll be swept away along the sands of the sea-shore!"

I gulped the agonising statement

puked at once,in a hope to wash off the punishment...

Days went by

remembering his exodus clubbed with alibis.

Now left with a state

with an age-long wait

to catch the volatile fate.

Again,the days went by

leaving the grieved-eyes dry.

One day

while strolling, I saw a glint,

a glint in a child's eyes

Those enormous playful eyes

winked at me with a tell-tale smile

that he had some fun

fun with a cute little pup.

I saw the pup

the beautiful quiet dog

with its tail up!

I was too apprehensive to believe the nature

I shunned the creature

I walked forth

In search of solace

In search of sermon

In search of serenity

In search of solitude

I walked forth

With an aim

To play a game

Betraying the shame.

The shame on burning others

to mock others with treachery

I kept moving forth

with the blame to extinguish all hopes

still couldn't escape the NEWTON'S III LAW

had to cover my burns with guffaw.

Went back to the family

they all discarded me happily.

Tried my luck with books

found difficult even to hook.

I died

I survived

I succumbed

I revived

I dwelled with every possible plight

disguised as mirage-very colourful very bright...

I was a traveller with a wicked smile

on reaching,every destination shifted another mile...

Happiness was always around me

Good-luck always beckoning me

alas! I couldn't get either for me.

I watched everyday in delirium

very conscious in treading the life's stadium

but each step I laid

I was yanked in the swamp

filled with sharp blades.

Everytime I was governed by some commandments

"do bad , get cursed

do good,seethe with remorse"

As I moved forth

with pseudo euphoria & lost worth

denying the grievance of my sham-birth

I kept hitting the head against the wall.

I kept travelling alone in the berth.

The berth of the train which agreed to shelter

a parched pathetic paranoid parasite

though with disdain.

Out of the blue

a hand came out with hues

to fill my entire discoloured life....

The hand was marsh-mellow soft

IT came to comfort my soul withered with frost

with determination so strong as iron-loft

ready to burn in my jaugernaut

so selfless

so god

IT lifted my drooping weak lashes

wetted my dessicated gaze

wiped the sorrows & pain

I kept moving forth

denying IT'S worth

Gradually, I began acknowledging

ITS deep love and compassion.

IT accomplished every word I uttered.

I melted like a butter.

At last I recovered

allowed all follies to uncover

enjoyed the sight

as the follies evaporated in light...

Smugged with utter happiness

swaying with a little dizziness

I extended my hand to hold my 'counter-part'

to join my awaiting fellow-man

But...the hand vanished

he said,"I waited too long,u bitch!

I strived too hard,u guttersnipe

I burnt with desire to be yours

I yearned to make u mine

But thou didn't turn up in shrine

Now I have emptied the love-wine

Not a drop is left for u to glob

Go away, m busy with my job!"

I cried all night

in disbelief on my plight

I caused my man

to stretch the rubber-band of luv so apart

it ruptured aloud in two parts

he on one side

n his luv on the other side

The luv struck me n

consummated me for a while

but my partner -ALL EMPTIED ALL VOID...